Montag, 30. April 2012

Montag, 23. April 2012

...when you look in the mirror and you are disgusted.
you just see fat.
and you just want to die...

Freitag, 20. April 2012

...waiting for the fucking end...

 everything is shitty. even my best friend leaves things unsaid to me. i'm a nothing, i'm mud. i ate too much so i'll become fat. fatter than now.
and all i think is: just one cut. just pop a few pills... and everything would be... gone..

Mittwoch, 18. April 2012

ate too much today.
there is so much fat...
saturday i'll weigh myself again ... but i'm scared of my scale

Dienstag, 17. April 2012

 I hate... fucking...


...own body!!!
i'm just tired.
everytime i wake up i'm tired again.
i just want to sleep.
for the rest of my life.

just sleeping... never stop dreaming..
i'm scared of being alone, but going with my friends is harder.
i hate being lonely, but i hate being in a big crowd too.
eveything is so fucking hard. everything is so... strange...

Montag, 16. April 2012

there is one thing i have to do: lose weight!
my body is so disgusting! i cant stand this shit!