look at my wrists
and than tell me again, everything's getting better
i know you lie
i'm an emotional wreck
and i fucking hate it!!
and all i can think is: die, die, die, die, die, die, die,die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die!!!
it seemed
like my life is a little trashily thing,
'cause neither a man nor a beast
wanted to take it from me
i miss feeling numb
the last way out of this fucking shit!
Samstag, 28. April 2012
when you're scared of looking in the mirror
my mirror called me fattie
when standing up in the mornig is getting the hardest act of the day
Freitag, 27. April 2012
i'm doing it less, but i'm doing it deeper
Mittwoch, 25. April 2012
when you cant wake up from the never-ending nightmare
Montag, 23. April 2012
...when you look in the mirror and you are disgusted.
you just see fat.
and you just want to die...
Freitag, 20. April 2012
...waiting...
...waiting for the fucking end...
everything is shitty. even my best friend leaves things unsaid to me. i'm a nothing, i'm mud. i ate too much so i'll become fat. fatter than now.
and all i think is: just one cut. just pop a few pills... and everything would be... gone..
Mittwoch, 18. April 2012
ate too much today.
there is so much fat...
saturday i'll weigh myself again ... but i'm scared of my scale
Dienstag, 17. April 2012
I hate...
...my fucking...
...own body!!!
i'm just tired.
everyday.
everytime i wake up i'm tired again.
i just want to sleep.
for the rest of my life.
just sleeping... never stop dreaming..
i'm scared of being alone, but going with my friends is harder.
i hate being lonely, but i hate being in a big crowd too.
eveything is so fucking hard. everything is so... strange...
Montag, 16. April 2012
there is one thing i have to do: lose weight!
my body is so disgusting! i cant stand this shit!
Sonntag, 15. April 2012
life sucks!
eating sucks!
i cant stand it anymore!